Even now when I meet a Tamil person there’s a sense of hatred that I feel. But I know there is no point in hating. They are also mothers who have lost their children; at least my son is alive and here in front of me. I don’t feel angry with all Tamils; not all of them were responsible.
It was with such difficulty that I brought up my four children. My husband worked hard as a day labourer. My son decided to join the army because he saw how hard his father worked. We didn’t want him to join. But he insisted.
When my son lost his legs I lost my mind. I took medicine for about three months and felt slightly better. People don’t understand why I feel so terribly sad all the time. But even now when I think of my son, my head hurts.
Things are better now that the war has stopped. We are no longer afraid. I have convinced myself that what happened was for the country and for the nation. It’s bearable when I look at it that way.
We’ve experienced fear for different reasons. There was the JVP earlier. Then the Tigers would attack villagers and buses. They would be hiding in the jungle.
My son is 20. He is building his house. I would like to see it complete. That would make me happy. I have one single aim now, which is that my son builds a good life for himself.